It's My Life

Wow, I have really been slacking off on the posting this semester. I've been super busy though, whether that is a legitimate excuse or not I'll leave to you.

Today I worked from 12:30 to 9 at Canadian Tire. I also got my tires changed in preparation for the drive up north next weekend. In under a week, my friend Brent Scheck, a friend a grew up with in Prince George, is getting married at UNBC. I'm excited just thinking about it.

I also demolished an old CD player for my car tonight because it no longer works. Stupid thing took forever just to dismantle. But I only damaged one CD in doing so, so that's good. The other 11 of the 12-disc CD player were saved.

I'm back at Canadian Tire tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that. I'll be so exhausted from working and school by the time I leave to PG that I won't feel like doing anything other than partying. Which is okay by me because that's all I plan on doing. It'll be nice to see my hometown for a few days again. And the wedding will be great.

I hate late customers when I'm closing down. Tonight while I was getting ready to close down in automotive I was dealing with two customers - with only 5 minutes before close. One lady was looking for a U-joint for her husbands car, which of course she needed right away because the car had broken down. The fact she was indecisive and unsure of even what specific U-joint she wanted didn't make things any easier, so I just gave her one and told her she could return it if it doesn't do the trick. I'm hoping it does. I'm no certified mechanic that's for sure. My job consists of looking the part up on the computer, finding it for the customer, and giving prices and information on that product. If a customer doesn't know what specific part he/she needs then there's little I can do.

Anyways, I've gotta work in just over seven hours, I just figured it was time I posted again on this thing. Get ready to read another post about how my Halloween went.

As you could tell from my last post, I'm not too happy about the fact I procrastinate. But at the same time, I shouldn't stress about my habits so much. Everybody has them, it's not just me. I was just drunk and finding things to complain about.

Me and Dani were both a little hungover today. Dani could utilize her hangover day a little more than me though. I had to work from 5-9 today - what a crazy four-hour shift that was. I did get my hours fixed while I was there, and I'm not working eight days in a row like I was scheduled for. I do work 8-4:30 on Monday though, which is okay because it's a stat holiday so I'll get time and a half for it. I'm getting training in automotive, which is where I'll be working most of the time.

I rented Mean Girls today, which was better than I thought. It wasn't as much a chick movie as I thought it would be, but instead was rather entertaining. Watching that was the highlight of my day.

I need to quit staying up late. I didn't even go out drinking and partying tonight, and it's already 4 a.m. My parents get into town tomorrow evening and are here all day on Sunday, then I work Monday. This long weekend is going to fly by. I haven't even been able to watch any baseball playoffs this week. Errrrr. I'm becoming so busy I'm forgetting to do some things. I need to make a list and get my priorities straight. Man, so much to do, so little time.

One of my biggest character flaws: Procrastination

I’m 22 years old, which while not very old, is older than I can believe right now. Has it really been over four years since I graduated high school? Is this really my third year taking journalism courses at UCC?
Most people take time for granted, not utilizing every minute of every day to truly live life to the fullest. I’m definitely one of those people. Too many times, I leave a bar or party saying “oh well, I’ll meet more girls next time.” Too many times, I fail a test saying, “oh well, I’ll do better on the next test.” Too many times, I hold off saying what I want thinking “oh well, I’ll tell them what I truly think later.” Yah, you get the picture. This level of procrastination in my life is getting ridiculous. I mean, I spend way too much time analyzing situations and not making decisions. I’m the worst at making decisions. In the bar, I’m always questioning myself on why I should approach this girl. I’ve spend way longer than I should in the liquor store just to come to a conclusion about what alcoholic beverage I should drink. In school, I can’t even choose an editorial in my Media Law class without worrying about not knowing every single detail.
Putting things off is really going to cost me big time if I don’t fix it. I’m worried about waking up like 30 and single someday thinking if I wouldn’t have slacked off so much when I was younger I wouldn’t be entering my 30s single, and nowhere near marriage. I mean, I don’t even know if I want to stick with journalism, yet I’m devoting all this time to working on assignments, listening to instructors and meeting deadlines with sports stories for the Omega.
Maybe I should just quit thinking so much, and taking my own life so seriously. After all, as Van Wilder said, “don’t take life too seriously. You’ll never make it out alive.”
Maybe I should just relax, but at the same time, if I keep relaxing down the road the way I am now, is there any hope for my future? I mean, over the last few years I’ve had no real relationship, no high grades, no major rewards or accomplishments.
I hate being so emotional. Before going to Rivers tonight I was happy. Now, after spending a couple hours at Rivers, I’m depressed and tired. I’m tired of the same old shit, just work and school. Why do I care so much? Why can’t I be like other guys and just shrug things off without a worry in the world?
I know what I want, yet there is some force holding me back from saying the things I need to say and doing the things I need to do. I need to quit worrying about other people, and just do what I need to do. It’ll take some time, but I think I can turn things around. I hope so, or else things won’t get much better for me down the road.